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“There you stand in the cereal isle. I feel like I’m looking at a stranger. You’ve got that cute in deep thought look on your face while your contemplating what cereal to buy, even tho you go for captain crunch every-time. You look just as handsome as you did the last time I saw you, tall, long legs, with your work boots and scruff. All the memories come flashing back how we spent our time together but you had disappeared just as fast as you had come into my life. I’ll never get how someone can just up and leave without a word. I know you had fucked up relationships and maybe that’s why you pushed me away. I remember you told me I’ve never had anyone good like you before, you’re just what I need. As your eyes lit up with that smile. Maybe you didn’t wanna “ruin” me. “Excuse me ma’am” an unfamiliar voice says as I realize that I’m just standing in the front of the isle. “Sorry” I mumble as I move and look towards you. Our eyes lock with your captain crunch in your hand. You look at me and give me that smirk and put your hand up and wave a little. I smile back and get butterfly’s in my stomach like I used too. I have 2 choices I can go talk to you and fall back into old times or I can walk away. Our eyes are still locked and both our smiles fade.old memories rushing back. You look like you want to Come talk to me, but You left and I’ve changed and grown from it, I’m not going backwards. So I keep moving forward with my cart and walk away and leave you behind just like you did me.”
— Me
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“Two Augusts ago, I saw you, briefly, negotiating the aisles of a grocery store with a litre of milk and a pound of tomatoes. You didn’t notice, and I was too nervous to say hello, but watching you walk by was like slowly driving down the street of my childhood home— you were familiar yet foreign, all of the memories were there only now, they were faint, like a warm light peeking through a curtained window after dark. I wondered who called you home now, and if they took good care of you, if they were grateful for every morning they awoke to the marvellous architecture of your bones and the design of your heart. But most of all I missed living in you, and regretted I ever left.”
Beau Taplin || Childhood home  (via afadthatlastsforever)

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“There’s something far worse
than missing a person you shared
a fraction of your life with.
And that is missing a person with
whom you did not.
For you will neither be allowed the
pleasure of their memory, the echo of
their love, the warmth of knowing
that once upon a time you meant a damn,
you were of some importance, you will
not even be allowed the small joy
of a smile that comes with happening
upon a note they once wrote you in
the bottom of your drawer.
It is a sort of hollow longing,
a dreadful nostalgia for a thing
that never quite happened.”
Beau Taplin || The hollow longing.  (via afadthatlastsforever)

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“I live in the past because it’s
the only place I can find you
anymore.”
Beau Taplin || The time traveller’s heart.  (via afadthatlastsforever)

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He could barely look at her so they sat in silence for a while.

And then abruptly, sometime between sunset and sunrise, he got up and left without a sound.

And she felt like crying because love was supposed to be enough to make someone stay, and she loved him more than she knew how. But her throat was dry and the only sound coming from her mouth was a half choke half hiccup which made her want to laugh.

So she cried a little and laughed a lot and her emotions were so tangled if someone asked how she felt there would be no valid answer.

"Everything." She whispered, "and nothing."

"I feel everything and nothing. And I only know that I want it all to stop for a while.

She paused. “A while, or perhaps forever.”

— Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #48 (via blossomfully)

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